That extra Chromosome 21

My original OB doc sat me down 8 weeks ago and told me she wanted me to see a specialist for our 20 weeks ultrasound. Not because there were any factors pointing to abnormalities, but because I'm one of those weird people, who no matter what we do, we get thrown curve balls when it comes to pregnancies and births. Walking into that appointment today, Derik and I had zero fears, and zero doubts that everything was going to be perfect. And perfect she was! 10 little fingers, 10 little toes, a big ol' noggin, 4 chambers on her heart, and she was moving like crazy. Let me back up and say that Derik and I took the necessary steps we felt we needed to to ensure that we have a healthy baby. But, we also know, that in the end, God is in full control and it's His plan. Always! So, after looking Charlie Fae over, our doctor proceeded to tell us that she has a white spot on her heart. It's not small, but it's also not large. This white spot is a sign of Downs Syndrome. I can't figure out if we didn't bat an eye or shed a tear because our girls were with us, or because we don't find anything alarming anymore, or simply because God was with us. The doctor assured us, this does not mean she has Downs, but there's a chance she does. Our questions began: what tests can we run? Will the spot go away? Does she have other sign of Downs? She has zero other signs that point to her having Down's syndrome. We will get multiple more ultrasounds done to see if the spot on her heart goes away. We will also have zero idea if she has it or not, until she is safe and sound in our arms, in 14-18 weeks. I'm simply sharing this, because our family is completely open With stuff like this. i also felt in my heart, that I wanted zero shock and zero judgement from anyone if she does have an extra Chromosome, and this was my way of doing that. I'm being completely honest when I say, that Derik and I are more than fine. I'm not sad, or mad, there have been no tears, and I'm not in shock. I have had the chance to eat, sleep, and breath, the special needs world for 6 years, and although it's hard, and challenging, it's simply amazing. If Charlie has Downs, we will all be fine, and if she doesn't, we will also all be fine. But, we also won't know for a while. Right after Zoie was born, I read a book called "Bloom." It was about a mom who had just had a sweet little girl, born with Down's syndrome. I read it to get encouragement with Zoie. In her book, Kelle Hampton said the following,"I have embraced the world of difference as an opportunity to teach my family that life is rich, and intricate, and to be lived to the fullest. To enjoy, to learn, to give back, and to teach." There are no truer words when you're given news that you could complain about, but after all, who would I be, if I complained about this sweet little girl, who no matter what, extra Chromosome or not, will add SO much to our family. Sweet Charlie, we cannot wait to meet you!