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"Her children call her blessed."- Proverbs 31:28

The first time I held Zoie in my arms I wasn't quite sure what to think. It's that, "okay, I love this sweet little girl, look at how beautiful she is, wow! We did this?" kinda reaction.....But if we are all honest, I think it takes a while to fully understand what being a mother means. It also takes time to develop that relationship and bond a mother has with her kids.
My mom has always told me how much she loves me.  I never understood why she would say or do some of the stuff she did, or still does, until I became a mom myself.
When Derik and I got married, I remember his asking me the question, "what do you want out of life?"  My first response was always to fall in love and become a mom.  I have always wanted tons of kids, and I always felt like I was put on this Earth to be a mom.  I wouldn't ever feel like it was okay for me to go to Heaven until I had the chance to fulfill my dream of mommyhood.
I just had this feeling, that I wanted to be a mom and had a big comfy chair all picked out where I'd rock you and give you all the hugs and nuggles you could ever need <3
Being Zoie's mommy is the best gift I could ever ask for.  It's not easy, but she makes waking up everyday easy because I look forward to her sleepy sighs, or her sweet little expressions. 
I miss her being so tiny, even though at a wopping 15 lbs she is still tiny....but now she has developed this personality and she is starting to experience the world. 
I think the thing I love most about mommyhood, is that there is nothing like it.  There is nothing to compare it to.  The love, the compassion, the worrying and tears, the smiles and laughter, nothing will ever compare to being a mommy.
I have big dreams for Zoie.  I dream she will conquer the world in her own little way, and that she will teach people what it means to live.  I dream she will be loved, and feel love forever <3
 
Last Mother's Day was my first Mother's Day, and probably the best one because we got Zoie dedicated.  I felt like we were really celebrating Mother's Day the right way by celebrating Zoie with God.  Without her, I wouldn't have a Mother's Day to celebrate.
Thanks for letting me be your mommy Zoie. I couldn't think of a better or more rewarding job.  I love you my little Mini and am so blessed to be your mom.
And thank you mom for showing me what it means to love, and be a good mom. I love you with all of my heart and thank God everyday for our friendship.
Here's to wishing all you mom's and mom-to-be's a wonderful Mother's day!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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