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A letter to my Rae of Sunshine on your first day of Kindergarten

Oh Zoie. We have officially made it to Kindergarten. You my dear, are a smiling, rolling, laughing, beautiful, God-filled miracle. I once said, "if Zoie lives to see 5, and see Kindergarten, my life will be complete." You have far outweighed our expectations, and just so you know, you have many, many wonderful years ahead of you. We have set new bars for you, and plan to do so often, because this world needs you and so does your mama. I never really planned what it would be like to send you off into this world of Kindergarten, and here we are. We have just read The Night Before Kindergarten after I downed 2 glasses of wine because my nerves are so bad and have been all day. Your "first day of Kindergarten" sign is made, your outfit is set out with the new Etsy shirt I ordered you, your backpack is stuffed with your AFO's and hand splints that we promised your teachers, and I just spent 3 hours of my afternoon reviewing your healthcare plans from the school nurse to make sure everything is in place and that Mary Blair is ready for you. As I sit here and write this with tears streaming down my face, oh and don't worry, I'll be worse tomorrow and your dad will have to calm me down, I can't help but think of how lucky this staff is to have you aboard. We choose this school for you because of the principal and her willingness to be flexible, because of Mrs S and her love for special needs kids, and you got put in the absolute best Kindergarten home room there is with Miss V. She reminds me so much of myself, so I know she is going to love you. You my dear, are going to teach this staff and these students so much. This is a huge step up from preschool Zo! You're in the big kid school now. You get recess and specials, circle time and a library card, your very own para, and two amazing rooms to cruise around in. Inclusion is something I'm a firm believer in, and at this school, you get that! You get to be a Kindergartner. Not a special needs kid, not a different kid, but a kindergartner. I cannot wait to see what those peers of yours teach you, and what you teach them. My wish for you this year Zoie, is that you spread your wings and fly. Fly to new places, see new things, meet new people, but never forget who you are. You are perfect, and special, and have the most beautiful smile. Not everyone you come across this year will agree, but since you're so strong, I know that won't ever bother you. I think it bothers me more, to know that kids can be mean, but my prayer is that you change some of those hearts and everyone will be accepting of everyone. I cannot wait to help plan Valentines Day parties, and Halloween parties, and go on field trips with you. I can't wait for the Bobcat dash and the spaghetti dinner and to do more laps than anyone because you have a cool stroller to cruise in. I cannot wait to see you grow, and learn, but most of all, I can't wait to see you share your smile and change lives, because me along with everyone, knows that's what you do best; you change lives. So, tomorrow, on your first day of Kindergarten, as I'm sobbing uncontrollably in the parking lot after your dad, Ivie, and I drop you off and leave you, go in there and spread your wings, and touch as many lives as God will allow you to. I love you monkey and am SO proud of you. Love, your mama

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